Well, I've succeeded with a few pages earlier...
This one, I've got some ideas and stuff that I'm planning to write down when I've got time and interest, but well see. .p
So, yeah. Writing serious...
That's a problem, since I don't always want to write something funny, and things inbetween usually turn out boring and lame...
Ehheh, yeah, so I'm shooting for angsty emo-goth crap here.
It's like a lollipop, tastes good every now and then, but you walk around with one all the time everywhere, and people will start thinking you're weird.
So, without further excuses, here's the prologue.
Painted Grey ? Scene 1 - Shock But No Awe
So, that was the beginning.
A death. A death and I killed a little of myself, yet another death. So what is life? Merely a process of prolonged withering and dying.
But, there is something else to it.
Rebirth; how the strong rise from the ashes to paint themselves from their past; they are not made by it, they make themselves by it, only as they see fit.
So for those who know the secret, is death to be feared?
It is not. Without death there is only stagnation, a bleak reflection of what is meant to be life.
If death brings life, why hang onto life, when death is more it's essence than itself? Death, is life. Life, is death.
But life goes on.
We must live on.
***
Valnier sat still beneath the tree. It was early morning, and soft light filtered in through the freshly greened canopies. The sun was rising, and slowly drying up the remnants of the morning mist and the night's rain. The ground and grass still glistered with watery pearls. Valnier found it slightly uncomfortable, that his clothes were just as wet as the ground, but it was to be expected; sitting a night outside in the rain with no cover did tend to have certain trade-offs.
It was not uncomfortable enough however, not enough to get himself moving.
For the moment he couldn't come up with any real reason to; but then, his mind was something of an blank paper with the most curiously drawn celtic knots swirling all over it, and still nothing, nothing he could really take a hold of; so it was understandable, so very... human.
Just, little birds waking up, chirping, flying... and a little bit of thirst... and a little hunger... mmm, something concrete.
Valnier stood up slowly, removed his pack from his back, and began rummaging. Dry bread, dry heavily salted meat... travelling rations.
Eating the tasteless food slowly and reluctantly, his thoughts started clearing up, and he began planning a course of action.
He definitely would have to return to the ambush spot. Someone might still be there waiting for him; they had come for him, not Gorion, but he reasoned the rain would have chased them to shelter, and didn't care to to think further than that.
Having flushed the dull taste from his mouth with a little water, Valnier began making his way back, following the little trail he'd fled by the past night.
The clearing turned out to be farther than he'd imagined, but eventually he still made his way to the trampled scene.
There was the body, as expected; Gorion, right where he'd fallen last night.
There was very little blood on the scene, the rain had washed it all away, and the body had ceased bleeding quickly when the heart had abruptly stopped.
What remained was an agonized grimace, a wet grey robe, pretty much
glued to the body underneath, and a deep pale gash running from the
left collar bone to the lower right ribs.
The broken ribs protruded slightly from the cold flesh on both sides.
Valnier pulled the torn robes to cover the cut, but the mental image proved much harder to hide.
He wiped his brow, and his hand caught a drop of sweat. A wave of light-headedness set in, and he slumped down to sit on the ground. He felt his cheeks; hot as coals, like his face would have been on fire.
"What in the hells?!", he screamed.
He felt somehow singled out. He was quite certain that not quite every male his age had to go through such rites of passage as gutting assassins, and now this...
Had he done something? Offended someone?
No, no, no, everything was still too petty. And the murderer, a massive man in massively spiked armour, eyes glowing yellow in his visor less demon-skull helmet.
Could such people really be merely assassin pawns of money? Hardly, he couldn't believe it, it had been more a demon than a man, it... none of it made any sense.
Drowsily he crossed his legs, supported his elbows on his knees, and
rested his face in his palms and his focus drifted back to the moment; "Dead, dead... Dead... Dead...".
He choked on the name, he could not say it, not even in his thoughts, not without tears. He did not cry., he refused to, though inwards he chuckled bitterly at his determination.
"I won't cry... I won't cry..." he kept whispering as the first tears began creeping out of the corners of his eyes.
He breathed heavily, trying to contain the ripping storm within, breaking down more and more the more he resisted. His lips began twitching, he could not keep it in for much longer, he knew, but he kept trying, and trying, swallowing down every bit of a tiny whimper that wanted to escape his mouth.
He kept swallowing, swallowing, and breathing, until it all was just too much to swallow.
He pressed his face to the ground, no one would hear it, he didn't think anyone would be there to hear it even, but it was as if though the forest was watching his shell crack, he had to hide it, he
couldn't let it out, it was just too... weak.
Then he heard what he least wanted to at the moment, a cautious 'Heya!' from somewhere, he couldn't place it, his head felt too jammed up; he could barely identify the voice, barely identify it as a voice even.
In an animal panic he leapt up, looked around, and spotting Imoen at the edge of the clearing, turned to face the other way, swallowed quickly a few times, stood up, and pretended staring at the sun; conveniently still the other way; "Ah, heya Immy!", he cut it at that, his voice being far more fragile, and shaky, than he was comfortable with.
He swallowed a few more times, his head was quickly unjamming, his train of thought quickly feeding more coal to the fire than it should, heck, his thoughts were racing, once again far beyond reach, but in a very different manner.
"I, ah, didn't expect to see you..." Valnier swallowed "...here!"
He quickly wiped his eyes, and turned around, facing Imoen who by then was standing just a few steps away.
"You ok?", she asked, doing a far better job at feigning a smile than he.
Valnier collected his composure, piece by piece, trying to put it back together, but he still missed a few pieces of the puzzle, leaving him more than a little befuddled.
"Me? Of course, of course, I..." Valnier paused, "I, I can handle myself in the wilds, yes, yes!", so stupid, he had to confess to himself, yet... relaxing, he felt instantly better.... not too much, but a little bit.
"Aw, c'mon, you..." Imoen suddenly turned quiet, and looked around,
"We gotta get moving, still a few shady people combing the forest a little, er, north? Er, that ways."
Valnier quickly scanned the forest around them, almost happy to have something to focus on other than himself, "Yeah... That's north you're pointing...? he paused, ?Don't worry, I'll be alright soon. Let's get a move on."
"The quicker the better!"
As swift and quiet as they could, they began making their way through the forest eastwards, every now and then halting in cover to listen, but they could not catch anything but the birds chirping.
Still, just to be safe, they kept moving until midday, eventually pausing for a break behind a moss covered boulder near the road.
Valnier was feeling much better by then.
The hike had brought back a little feeling of strength to his limbs, and loaded his brains with endorphins.
Though he knew he wasn't really over it all yet, for the moment, the night and the early morning seemed an eternity away.
So, chewing on a hunk of bread, he asked, "So Immy, how come you're here, and not washing dishes at the inn? safely on the better side of the walls..."
"Oh, oh, yes... Couldn't let ya get out to see the world all by yourself, could I now, huh?"
She grinned.
"So how'd ya even make it through the gate?"
Imoen grinned, "Heehee! Ever heard of such an thing as 'rope'? Heehee, you're really clueless for being such an 'old' and 'wizened' vizier of the forests!"
Valnier snorted, then turned to look back the way they'd come, "Heh, well, I never called myself either 'old' or 'wizened'..." he drifted in thought for a moment, and continued a little hollowly, still trying to keep up the near-cheery mood spike with a few empty chuckles, "Old and wizened, heh, never been quite the match for my description, rather... Heh, only one I ever called anything was you, and that was 'Cheeky Little Doodad Girl', heh..."
Imoen wrinkled her mouth, not at the memory; the returning cloud of moodiness simply irritated her.
"Hey, cheer up! We're in the clear now! So now we'll just... run off somewhere and go adventure! Yeah!"
Valnier rolled his eyes, "I THINK I've had plenty enough adventure to last me a while..."
"Nuh-huh! You just need a hug."
"Can I get one without itchy-powder down my neck? Or other places for the matter. Please?", Valnier chuckled.
Innocent as ever, Imoen pouted, "Aw, I wouldn't..."
"Heh... Yeah, I know... Not now...", Valnier turned to look elsewhere, and repeated mellowly; "Not now..."
Imoen seemed undecided on what to say, and a moment of nervous silence ensued, but eventually she decided to rather go ahead with something than nothing, ?Look, I know you were close, but you know, bad things just happens... c'mon, it's not your fault.?
Valnier stared dully at her for a moment, then answered irritatedly, ?Yes, some bulky demon of a man traipses out of the woods with his eyes glowing yellow and ogres and all hell's armies trailing at his back. Of course it's my damn fault when he decides to gut my mentor then.? he paused for a thought, then went on wryly, ?In Candlekeep, Gorion could have cooked anyone's balls in butter and no one could have done a damn thing about it, and that yellow-eyed freak is... he was, after me... ah... dammit...?
Imoen fiddled her thumbs for moment, then chirped in her cheeriest yeah-let's-talk-about-something-else tone; ?So you said on the way there were some friends of Gorion's waiting in The Friendly Arm, right? We should go there! Right? Right-right!?
Valnier chuckled, ?Right-right... We'll make it there for the evening if we go through the forest. I'd prefer to avoid roads for the moment.?
Edited by WeeRLegion, 08 June 2008 - 11:28 AM.